Letting go

A few times in my life ive let go. I did not understand that was what i was doing, until today. I did not plan to let go today, and maybe the Mars retrograde in the sky has something to do with it, maybe not. Anyway, i let go. I just stopped holding back, and i just let everything flow. It has happend before that i almost let go. Once on a mountain i laid down on a rock in the sun and i almost let go there, but that time i did not move much, there was not much action in the body so i did not let go completely, for it seemes connected to the moving of the body. And another time in Amsterdam i sort of let go but its all a bit blurry, a bit fuzzy around the edges of what really transpired. 


But this time, oh this time, i let go totally, completely. I just stopped telling myself: "Dont do that now", its not OK. Or "Not now, maybe later". It totally racked my body with waves of pounding energy. I had to scream as hard as i could to get it out. There was no "i" anymore there where just "us". I communed with the sun, the trees, the snow, the moss, the grass, the sky, the people and the fire. There where no distance between us, there was no "I" and "the thing". There was no separation. 

And it really is that simple. Just let go.


Rituals, rites, tobacco, singing, dancing alchohol, drumming and so on, all of it is for nought if you dont just let go. None of it can make you let go, only you can let go. Let go of the idea of yourself. Let go of all those things you are telling yourself all the time. Just let go. 


Just let go of time. Let go of your so called "things". Let go of your memories. Let your body move, but let go of control. Dont try to do this or try to do that.