I just cant figure it out

Why is it that i am the way i am?
I cant find a sufficient explanation
It seems what other people feel like a something opening up a little bit, i feel like an explosion
It seems that other people think sometimes for a moment, i think all the time
It seems other people treat theyre own life in a trivial manner, while i take it all seriously trying to make the best of it
So im thinking: What am i? Why am i?
I need to find out who i am...